So you don't want to sit next to me
Hey guys. I'm back today with a little story of what happened to me in maths class today.
Now I am not the most popular person in my school, which is kinda an understatement, but this means that while everyone knows who I am they don't know much about me. Or they have these wrong ideas about me that simply aren't true. One of these things is that I'm quiet which is true in a very limited number of situations but most of the time I am either normal or loud. However most people who think I'm quiet only see me when I'm in class where I don't have most of my friends and frankly I'm just trying to stay awake, so talking would just be too much effort. In maths class where this story is set I just get on with my work or doodle as only one of my friends is in my class and she's on the other side of the room.
When I'm in maths I happen to sit alone, because the person who used to sit next to me moved to set 1 (I'm in set 2 ) the thing is I actually quite like having a desk all to myself and I'm not the type of person who needs others to entertain me. So today I was just sitting down minding my own business trying to do the work and just getting on with things. To be honest I was pretty zoned out and how I worked out any of the questions is beyond me. While this was going on I could hear my teacher telling off this boy in my class "Jack" and giving him a warning. I was only half heartedly listening until I heard my name being mentioned. Basically the teacher was threatening to move him and have him sit next me, and as I have bat like hearing I was able to hear "Jack" say repeatedly I don't want to sit next to Vienna. With him saying it as if the very thought of it could kill him. At this point I was quite annoyed because he was making sitting next to me seem like an insult. This and the fact that he kept repeating it to his friends who simply laughed made me want to go over there and hit him with my textbook.
What made this even worse is that he ended up winding the teacher so much that he had to sit next me and as he came over I heard him making jokes at my expense. (Basically they were saying things like "I won't be able to concentrate with all Vienna's talking" and were shushing me, they were mocking the fact that I'm apparently so quiet). Understandably I didn't find this very funny as all his friends were laughing along. I know some of you will say that it's just banter and that I shouldn't get my feelings hurt but I don't call it banter when someone you hardly know makes fun of you. To make it worse when he sat next to me he kept making irrelevant comments and telling me that my Feng shui was off which I found incredibly irritating.
By the end of the lesson I was ready to sprint out of the classroom to get as far away from him as possible. The whole experience just left me feeling a bit embarrassed. I know that some people in my school think I'm a nerd, which I'm not (not that there's anything wrong with it) but I didn't think they could complain about having to sit next me, if anything I should complain about having to sit next to such barbaric idiots.
What the main purpose of me telling you this is that people in secondary school are dumb, all they do is say mean things, make fun of others to their face or behind their back, or they simply judge you when the only thing they know about you is your name and they still get that wrong sometimes. But what they say doesn't matter, I've had to deal with this for 4 years so far (not bullying or anything like that but just dealing with people judging me and categorising me as something I'm not) and I'm fine now. I realise that people are always going to judge you regardless but I'd rather you judge me and not like me for who I am not who you think I am. If you've been in the same situation as me and feel as if you can't be your true self at school or if you don't know who you are then don't worry. I've made it through and I've only got 8 more months till I never have to see these people EVER again. You just know that I'm not buying the year 11 photo, if I did I'd probably burn it to celebrate my freedom.
Just be yourself and even if you can't, remember that this is not the end of life you can go to a new 6th form with all new people and maybe you'll find better success there.
Till tomorrow x.
P.S I just wanted to add that in order to be strong you have to have self confidence and the belief in your own abilities. Also that none of their opinions matter, in the slightest, at all, this is only one small section of your life and it's not always going to be this way.
P.S.S I made up a little song to the tune of Forget You by Cee Lo Green just sing it whenever you feel down about this.
You see me driving round town
With a job I love
And I'm like forget you
Oo, Oo, Ooo
Ain't got no change in your pocket
And I got a lot
And I'm like forget you
And forget them to
Told you I'd be richer
Then I'd forget ya
Ain't that some shh
Ain't that some shh
Don't have no pain in my chest
I don't wish you the best
With a forget you
Oo, Oo, Ooo
:D
Now I am not the most popular person in my school, which is kinda an understatement, but this means that while everyone knows who I am they don't know much about me. Or they have these wrong ideas about me that simply aren't true. One of these things is that I'm quiet which is true in a very limited number of situations but most of the time I am either normal or loud. However most people who think I'm quiet only see me when I'm in class where I don't have most of my friends and frankly I'm just trying to stay awake, so talking would just be too much effort. In maths class where this story is set I just get on with my work or doodle as only one of my friends is in my class and she's on the other side of the room.
When I'm in maths I happen to sit alone, because the person who used to sit next to me moved to set 1 (I'm in set 2 ) the thing is I actually quite like having a desk all to myself and I'm not the type of person who needs others to entertain me. So today I was just sitting down minding my own business trying to do the work and just getting on with things. To be honest I was pretty zoned out and how I worked out any of the questions is beyond me. While this was going on I could hear my teacher telling off this boy in my class "Jack" and giving him a warning. I was only half heartedly listening until I heard my name being mentioned. Basically the teacher was threatening to move him and have him sit next me, and as I have bat like hearing I was able to hear "Jack" say repeatedly I don't want to sit next to Vienna. With him saying it as if the very thought of it could kill him. At this point I was quite annoyed because he was making sitting next to me seem like an insult. This and the fact that he kept repeating it to his friends who simply laughed made me want to go over there and hit him with my textbook.
What made this even worse is that he ended up winding the teacher so much that he had to sit next me and as he came over I heard him making jokes at my expense. (Basically they were saying things like "I won't be able to concentrate with all Vienna's talking" and were shushing me, they were mocking the fact that I'm apparently so quiet). Understandably I didn't find this very funny as all his friends were laughing along. I know some of you will say that it's just banter and that I shouldn't get my feelings hurt but I don't call it banter when someone you hardly know makes fun of you. To make it worse when he sat next to me he kept making irrelevant comments and telling me that my Feng shui was off which I found incredibly irritating.
By the end of the lesson I was ready to sprint out of the classroom to get as far away from him as possible. The whole experience just left me feeling a bit embarrassed. I know that some people in my school think I'm a nerd, which I'm not (not that there's anything wrong with it) but I didn't think they could complain about having to sit next me, if anything I should complain about having to sit next to such barbaric idiots.
What the main purpose of me telling you this is that people in secondary school are dumb, all they do is say mean things, make fun of others to their face or behind their back, or they simply judge you when the only thing they know about you is your name and they still get that wrong sometimes. But what they say doesn't matter, I've had to deal with this for 4 years so far (not bullying or anything like that but just dealing with people judging me and categorising me as something I'm not) and I'm fine now. I realise that people are always going to judge you regardless but I'd rather you judge me and not like me for who I am not who you think I am. If you've been in the same situation as me and feel as if you can't be your true self at school or if you don't know who you are then don't worry. I've made it through and I've only got 8 more months till I never have to see these people EVER again. You just know that I'm not buying the year 11 photo, if I did I'd probably burn it to celebrate my freedom.
Just be yourself and even if you can't, remember that this is not the end of life you can go to a new 6th form with all new people and maybe you'll find better success there.
Till tomorrow x.
P.S I just wanted to add that in order to be strong you have to have self confidence and the belief in your own abilities. Also that none of their opinions matter, in the slightest, at all, this is only one small section of your life and it's not always going to be this way.
P.S.S I made up a little song to the tune of Forget You by Cee Lo Green just sing it whenever you feel down about this.
You see me driving round town
With a job I love
And I'm like forget you
Oo, Oo, Ooo
Ain't got no change in your pocket
And I got a lot
And I'm like forget you
And forget them to
Told you I'd be richer
Then I'd forget ya
Ain't that some shh
Ain't that some shh
Don't have no pain in my chest
I don't wish you the best
With a forget you
Oo, Oo, Ooo
:D
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